Watcha gonna do about it

I slept until 8:15 in the morning despite the fact that school was starting 45 mins later. Why? Coz am in luv with my bed. Mind you i live 20 mins from school. I froze my ass off to day. Why? Yeah coz smartness knows no weather. I didnt understand anything at school today. Why? Coz i came late and missed all the introduction. I bought make up today, even though i got way too much of it and should be saving. Why? Because i am addicted to make up. I didnt go to the gym today. Why? Because i had way too much fun with my friends to depart from them, so stupid me when around town with them instead. I ate lunch, dessert, lots of tea and lunch again in less than an hour. Why? I thought i was very hungry. I showered twice when i later came home. Why? I thought i was dirty after having taken out the rubbish. I am in a weird mood. Why? Because i  miss my other half.

Am so full of excuses that it makes me sick to my stomach. Why? Am young, foolish and frustrated. Hugs

I don't know how

When I don't know how to express what I feel, music is always my escape.
How to love - Lil Wayne

This second one is too beautiful .

Impossible - Christina A ft Alicia Keys

Jäkla sk&t

Usch busch. Jag är sååå besviken på mitt lag Barca idag. Vi är och var det starka laget mot Real men jävla vad h%&# blev det jämt(Copa del rey). Hur? Jag hatar Real med hela mitt hjärta. Hela laget är fylld med kaxiga snorungar. Är sååååå arg så jag vet inte vart jag ska ta vägen så tack och hej för idag. Mtcheeeew

My milkshake brings all the boys to the yard....

Hello dolls;) Puff, this long day is over. School and then work, Boring ha? I agree with yall. Anyhu, after work i rushed home coz i wanted to go to the gym but when i got home, i became too lazy. BUT, i still worked out, through youtube. Thank God for those workout channels. I really loved the one below and it had me sweating just after 10 mins.

After my workout, i was starving so i did a protein shake. Banana + blue berries + green milk = yummie.
Am really turning into a workout junkie and health eating freak and am really loving it. Beach 2013 here i come, i mean healthy mind here i come.






And while at work, i drank green tea and an apple. Mums

28-01-2013

Dear Diary;

Today i decided to fulfill a promise i made to myself. I started working out. I went and joined a gym and trained for the first time in...ages. If my muscles are hurting now? Damn right. Am a little bit frustrated with myself. Ive always been a workout junkie, no i have always been a sport fanatic. I have always eaten healthy and trained each and everyday til the day i moved. Gaaaah. Why on earth did i stop? Oh i know, life happened. No, problems started making their way  into my life and i then couldnt do all those things i loved the most. But hey, beta late than never coz here i am now, able to do what i love most, taking care of my body. Now am not thinking about beach 2013 (that is a lie coz may be am thinking about it a little bit). My main goal with working out is to feel beta about myself like i have always felt. It feels like my self esteem is hiting the high way and leaving me? Eh. That aint happening as long as i am in my right senses so thats why folkz am dedicated.

Oh and i hope i keep this up til summer.

On another note, during leactures, i overheard one of my buddies listening to this tune and now i cant get it outta ma head. Gaaah. It just reminds me of sad things. Anyhu, like Shontelle.

Good nite dolls.

Very late and I can't sleep.

Saturday night, time is just before 4 a.m, I can't sleep. Now no partying at all. The thing is that I am at ma cousins house and we got 3 month old baby who isn't sleeping at all, Gaaaah. I love babies but ah this moment is just making me hate them. He cute and all that but not today.
Anyhu, we y'all decided to buy champagne because we ain't sleeping at all, then we better have fun.

Good nite fun people.

@Sandys

This day been very fun. School was really fun and very short. Thank God. We had a couple of labs that were easy (very shocking) to do. So after school, me and a bunch of girls decided to go to a cafe and just talk. Girl talk. So cozy.
Some of them have long journeys home so they left quite early. Only 3 of us stayed which made everything cozier. Omg we talked about everything and anything. We 3 are very close so it was fun, too much fun. I discovered one thing that my love life aint as interesting as my friends:(:(. I think that's coz me n ma Hun are fighting way too much these days. Young love you know. Hope we get thru it though.

On another note, the tea(tchai) I drank was really really good. Something to try if you got a chance.
Have a good day lovely people.

Brrrrrrrr

Oh my goodness. This country is one massive freezer. So freakin cold. I have really good winter jackets and shoes. Warm and fashionable but damn, I always forget to put in layers under my jeans. Now today, I just rushed out with my skinny jeans on. Life wasn't tough at all til I finished work late at night. Brrrrrrh. I couldn't feel my legs when I went off the bus. I literally ran up the hill from the bus stop to my apartment. Ands entire face started to hurt. I love winter bse of the snow but today, I give up. Today is the day I break up with winter. -20 isn't fair at all.
Enough of my complaining. There are people who are living in worse conditions so I thank God for my warm boots and my heaters at home (I got 2).
My day was hectic. This entire term at Uni looks to be a demanding one. We have just started a new course at school and I've decided to start revision on the first day coz then I won't be panicking when exams approach. Hope to keep it up
Here are some photos that my friend took of the snow. Beautiful but painful coldness.

Good nite

Too long a day.

So errhm the pics are coming. Soon. Today's been a long day. I thought I wouldn't be staying long hours in sch when at uni but bwoyy I was so wrong. Well we actually don't have long hours but we got lots of self studies so that's why I stay in sch til late. And afterwards, I had to go work. Gaaaah. I love my job but some clients just make me hate my life. Damn some pple are just aaaah.......
Anyhu, I've just painted my nails and that makes me in a better mood. Three things I can't live without are nail polish, eye shadow and lipstick. Ok, I can live without lipstick but nail polish, that's ma absolute favourite. I have now purchased all those nail art stuff so am one happy girl.
I bought 3 lipsticks from make up store.. Am using photos from their website coz I gots no camera.
1. Culture. My absolute favourite.


2. Senorita. Can't wait for summer coz this one is refreshing.


3. Pretty. This one gives ma lips that nudity colour that looks natural. Am in love



I went ahead and bought an eye shadow from H&M. Shimmery gold is the name. Always good to have something shimmery just in case.  I love make up store products. Totally worth the price. For yall dark skinned girls that are looking for make up in a cheaper variation, try maybellines new 'FIT ME' collection. They literally have all skin tones and quite cheap.
My bed is calling so nite yall.

Shopping

Yeey. Happy gal over here. These past few days have been a m a z I n g because I've been shopping, a lot, well, way too much. The prices right now are off the hook. Clothes and wat not are being sold for unbelievable prices. Save to say, half of the prices that are on sale. Heaven.
I've bought boots, ballerinas, leather pants, jackets, dresses, leggings, party shoes, jewellery and tiny minty stuff like nail polish. I feel soooo good, I can't even explain words.
It's getting quiet late but I will show u examples of everything that I bought.
Nite

Lyfe......

Life changes every minute of everyday. You loose friends, you find new ones. You realise that your friend wasn't even an honest friend and that, that person you used to hate can make a really good friend. You look for love, you find love and then you loose love. You just happen to realise that all along, you've been loved.
You laugh. You cry. You laugh so hard that you cry. You do this, u do that. But then you wish you hadn't done that. you then you learn from that, you move on and are happy that you did because you have ur ups and downs.
You watch good movies. You see bad movies and then you wonder if your life is one big movie. You look at others and wish you were them. But then realise who they really are and are glad you are you. You love life. You hate life. But then compare your life with others that dont have anything. Then you be happy you are living your life.
In the end, you just find yourself to be living your life, no matter what is thrown at you.
I love my life and are stronger than ever no matter what comes.

Off to love land

These past days, weeks, no these past months have been a massive whirlwind for me. I´ve really learnt alot about people, well about a specific person. Buff don´t let looks or "front" deceive you. Some people are tiny devils, not so innocent devils deep inside. Ok, not devils but yall get the point. yadaydaya, i wont go there, atleast not today about them creatures.

Anyhu, am exhausted both physically and mentally. I got a massive test tomorrow and am super nervous. I´ve been studying ma ass off the past days so every inch in my body is being dragged towards my bed begging me to sleep. I work and study at the same time so life aint easy you know. But guess wat, tomorrow after ma test, i will be going off to "love land". Ma hun boo will be taking me away on a lil weekend, just the two of us so we can just breathe and be. Hiz an angel that bwoyy. We both been super busy so we totaly deserve it. Kant wait. Oh and imma getting a gym card so i can start getting in shape. Beach 2013 here i come.



On another note. Am a huge vampire diaries fan and it has started. So extatic. Yall that forgot to watch the recent episode, do it! Ma heart literally skips a bit every second when am watching that serie. Go team Damon.



                                                                               
Good nite yall. Wish yall a happy weekend (I know its Wednesday but i wont be writing anything til next week). Take care of yourselves and please BE YOURSLEVES no matter wat.

ciao<3

I won't give up......

I won't give up, and yall shouldn't either. Having very long and bad days so music is my escape.

what's the point

Wats the point in loving someone if they don't love u back?
.Wats the point in showing off?
.In wanting to know other people's business.
. In trying and trying but things ain't working out.
. Being nice to people who are mean to you.
. Wats the point of drinking alcohol?
. In black people bleaching
. In arguing with a fool.
. Wanting something you know u will never get.
. Trusting people
. In material stuff
. In trying to be wat you ain't?

There's pretty much no point in anything at all. I feel helpless.

On another note , all the posts on my blog are personal. Each and every post isn't at all aimed to anyone. I don't attack anyone at all so all y'all who may think or feel personally attacked, am sorry in advance. These posts are just my personal feelings towards my environment. I never single anyone out and write about them.

Get ur lyfe

What on earth is wrong with us galz. We are mean to each other, dishonest, fake, back biting, TRAGIC!!. Why on earth are we like that? We make up stuff, we suppose and think other people's status or blog post is about us. If you got a problem, gal man up and talk about it instead of whispering on the sides or writing a blogpost about it. Watta hell.
Some hide behind God. God here God there while bitching and back biting behind closed doors. Aint no perfect on this planet but aaaaah, some galz are way too faced for their own good.
Now I ain't saying that fearing God aint good. Am a God fearing person myself and I trust that he is there for each and everyone of us. Ma problem is people using God as a weapon.
Occupy yourselves for those who are jobless, don't open your mouth if wat u have to say aint taking u nowhere. God damn it revise your books instead of talking bs.

Just get your lives!!

Healthy Eating

Staying in school all day until 12 am can lead to poor eating. I am literally sittin all day and just bombarding my brain with lots of info.
My New Years resolution was to eat health, one of them so am really really trying my best. I am a junk food eater so it ain't easy you know.
Anyhu, here is a snap of my food for the whole day. Hope to keep it up.
Luv

From sch on a Saturday

Folkzz, how y'all doing. I hope you are having a more fun Saturday than I Am having. Am literally panicking bse of my exam next week. I always promise myself to start studying weeks before my exams but aaaah, empty promises I guess.
Anyhu, studying isn't that boring. We actually having fun, way too much fun if you ask me.
Hope y'all have an amazing day.
Luv.

What are you scared of gal?

This blog post is inspired by Bondibilala

The best relationship one could ever have is with oneself. And when you have loved yourself the best way that you can, you discover your worth and settle for nothing less.

I recently had my ears bleeding having listened to a friend moaning and grinning having been left by her friend. Now that shez single, life sucks. Sigh sigh sigh. This is dedicated to you girl.
I wonder why people think relationships are glamorous coz it really takes patience, love, hardwork, compromise, trust, acceptance, the list goes on and on. Sure, instagram, facebook, keek and all those social networks deceive us with daily pics of couples and their PDAs but that aint real life, its just a tiny bit of the entire relationship.

There are soo many married people or people that are literally stack in a relationship because they dont wanna hurt the other person. Their far gone single days were the best days or their lives. There is no Me or I in a relationship, its two of you or 3 if u count that one annoying gal trying to break u apart. But your single days, its just you hun. Travel around, commit on your amazing talents (You know u are good at what you do), concentarte on your books coz hey school is calling. Learn to be on your own and stop dwelling on the relationship u had or could have had. You are possibly sorrounded by people in "perfect" relationships, do not compare yourself to the for Gods sake! Take yourself on dates;contrary to popular belief, its not sad at all. Just like it takes a confident man of his sexuality to wear pink, it takes just as much confidence to have lunch or see a movie alone.
When you done living single, being in relationship will be a m a z i n g because then you are comfortable with yourself.

Dont forget to fall in love with yourself first: Carrie Bradshaw

Music is the best there is......

These are the most played tunes on my phone at the moment. Each is played depending on how i feel.

1. These first two are played when am in a really good mood. Luda is one of my favourite rappers followed closely by Lil wayne and Eminem,
Representing- Luda ft Kelly Rowland

2. I especially love Jays part.
Clique- Kamye ft Jay

3. Gaaaah this next one is a favourite one coz Rihanna is ma favourite singer bad ass, Love everything she represents.And i like the lyrics of the song. I aint a big fan of Chris Brown but he is aite.
Nobodys Busines-Riri ft Breezy

4. Hmmm what to say about this one. The lyrics are on point. I like the fact that it makes me sad coz that sets my mind to start thinking. Please dont give up on your dreams.
I wont give up - Jayson Mraz

 5. I know that right now, therez alot of hype about this one but watta heck. Its ka boom and these African bwoyyz are doing there thing. Total dance catch song
Alingo - P-square

What's wrong with people.....

I've had a very calm but hectic day. I had a short day at school and the plan was to go home and cook food for the coming week. Student life. Smh
Anyhu, on my way home, I learnt that some sucker created a fake fb account and decided to gossip something very private about one of my closest friends, to her big brother. The entire thing is so weird bse we(me n ma friend), we study on the easy coast while her family and mine live on the west coast, ie two separate worlds. Why and who on earth would go through all the trouble of creating an account just to gossip or tell on someone else?? This world is crazeeey. Poor girl, she been crying all evening bse now her family is like soldiers on her. Aaaah people can't stop surprising.
Just y'all be careful who you say what to. Crazy ass people.

Good nite y'all.

Late Nite

Atleast one post a day. Thats wat ive promised myself for this amazing blog. I had alot to write about until i started writing, everythig just vanished. Am exhausted work but cant sleep coz am worried bout sch, serious worries.
Will tell yall bout it tomorrow coz ma head is too tired to think....

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A thousand shades of me....

So who I am? Most people know me as the bubbly, talkative girl, some know me as the fashionista and make up crazy freak, some know me as the football Barca dedicated girl, some know me as a good friend, and as a best friend, some know me as back biting freakin gal, others know me, believe it or not, as a quite calm girl while a few would just mumble to themselves at a distance without even knowing me.
Now you may think am a chameleone but
am not. I always and always try to be myself. I am the preacher of pple being themselves so I try ma hardest to practice wat I preach. Different people know me differently because am the type of gal who gives u wat u give her. It's sad at times because its a con sometimes.
Now of u nice, am nice, if u bietch crazy damn right u get the same from me. Now if I don't like nobody or I feel they just taking me backwards, they will get the silent treatment. That's just me.
But there are few people in my little world that have experienced all shades of me. Those are the people I cherish coz even at my worst, they stayed coz they know I ain't bad after all.

Anyhu, don't think am making sense anymore but the purpose of this post is to encourage y'all to stay by someone's side even when things are going south, as long u know how beu ti ful an amazing that person is or can be.

Lots of love from an optimist

Back to business for reals.....

Long long day. Just got home from a long day at school. This day been demanding but I know it's nothing coz the other coming days will be horrible coz I have to work. Blaaaa.
Nothing interesting about my day. Just studying, studying and more studying. Actually a little gossiping coz everyone had lots of news to tell. Hahahahaha girls u know.
In the middle of all the studying and wat not, I actually made my way to town and bought tiny stuffs that were unplanned. 2 pairs of jeans, a dress and a watch. Am never ever going back to town because am always tempted. So now am kinda poor.
Actually school isn't that bad at all. It can be fun(apart from the mornings). Even though am exhausted, I had a really fun day. Hahaha lots of laughs and 'smh' too much gossip.
Hope y'all hade a ballistic day. Good nite folk zzz.

INSTAGRAM

This is why I love Instagram. Lots of quotes that help me put my feelings in words.

No good a day

That feeling when you are leaving ur family , that feeling when u are going away, back to school. Even though I miss ma buddies, I so miss my family more. I don't remember the last time I had this much fun. For 2 weeks, I've had things to do every single day, for two weeks, I have dressed up, make up on and hair in check to go out and do stuff.
I even convinced my workaholic mum to take a day off and go shopping with me. These past weeks have been aaaaah, can't explain it in words. I can't cry coz am too old for that, can't be whining coz eh, u gotta do wat u have to do. I just thank the almighty that my friends will be waiting for me at the station where am going. We gonna have a tiny welcome get together and catch up. Thank God once again that its Monday tomorrow so we won't be going out as we usually do coz am just too tired.
Me and my mami have come a very long way and I love her very much. And my siblings, they are gold to me. Life would be unfair without them. Love u guys so mucho<3.

This illustrates me and ma brozza

Bye holidays

So errrrm the holidays are over. Why God, why why. But am actually looking forward to school mostly bse all ma friends are returning to this little town. I've missed each and everyone of them. All ma buddies that we play football with and make African jokes with. Lol. I've missed all em a little too much.
Now these coming weeks will be hell, literally coz of the exam periods. Phreakin physics. Who invented that horrible subject? Prolly my enemies.
Am good at maths and chemistry but dont understood a thing about physics so this will be a tough one. Stupid me who hasn't touched ma books at all. Crap.

Good nite folks and pse be nice to each other. I totally should take ma own advice. Ciao<3

Be positive

Okay so I really should stop posting all those negative posts.
So, from now on, I gats to get positive. I really should stop taking on bad energy from others.
So please help me God, I swear from now on to only write what concerns me and only me.

Sorry for deleting the last post. But I still stand by my words, hypocrites should just hide indoors.

MY 2012

Am sure in a blogging mood today. Last post of the day.

JAN
One of the worst months of last year. Eveyrthing, well almost e v e r y t h i n g in my life changed. New sch, new friends, new life and new attitude. I took all my belongings with little to no cash, and moved. Thankfully, getting a job wasnt that hard so i went to school daily and worked daily. Was exhausted every single day. Someone had to pay the bills and i was sure aint getting help from ma parents but some good people helped me whenever they could. Ma siblings and that kid i cherish.
  thats how i felt everyday in January.

FEB
I passed y first exam and was excited. School and work continued to challenge me but i was hanging in there. Started another course and passed my second exam but failed the third. Ouch. That was a blow under the belt but was expected. One of my siblings surprised me with cash and hell yeah life started to brighten up for me.

MARCH

I dont remember alot from march apart from the fact that i didnt have to work that much coz i had saved up quite an amout and could lay back and just study. But i remember feeling kinda depressed coz i was so distant from my family.

APRIL
Took a flight back home and visited my family and bestie. Life was great again. I started to feel like myself again.
Again, I don't remember that much from April either.

MAY-JUNE

Best months. Summer holidays around the corner and I had passed most of my exams<3. I still worked hard but wasn't as tired as the beginning of the term.
I got free cash from taxes. Not free as in free coz I pay taxes of course. During June, I was rich as hell so I made multiple trips throught the country. Life was great.

JULY - AUG
Boring borin borin coz I only worked. Blaaaaa. The most months ever.

SEPT OKT NOV

sch started and that meant staying up late studying. I studied ma ass off but failed ma exams during these months. The most fun about these months is that I made new friends. Well am friends with everyone in the class but this time around, I made new study friends (one of em is ma bestie now). These pple helped me alot both with sch and personal issues. Lots of luv

DEC
na na na. I only remember good things about December. I passed all ma retakes. Gaaaaaah was soo excited. I particularly remember passing 2 exams where only 30% in the class had passed. We are 90 students so the joy was at its best.
I worked alot in Dec but made it home just in time for the new celebration with ma soul mates. Yeah i got a few av em.

Now lets hope 2013 brings as many challenges but beta solutions.

Back to business

Trying to practice ma English skills so ma bestie encouraged me to write in English as I will be moving to an English speaking country in a few years. Fingers crossed.
Anyhu, I finally said ma good byez to ma family and now sitting here all alone in ma student apartment, regretting why I didn't study during Xmas and watnot. God have mercy, I got a thousand things on my mind, happiness, anger and some more that I cant put in words.
Time to study for real which means I won't be blogging a lot but I promise to give y'all a piece of ma mind as soon as I can.

Pse be nice to each other coz life be too short.

In Swedish

Tänkte ta detta inlägg på ett språk jag kan artikulera mig mest på. Svenska.
Äntligen har man landat efter all ny år firandet, mat, presenter och så klart sjukt mycket kärlek från mina nära och kära. Jag mår bra, alldeles för bra om ni frågar mig. Föregående året var nästan katastrof, nästan för om jag inte hade mina ängel vid min sida, hade jag nog dött. Bokstavligt talat.
Jag gick igenom helvete under 2012, kämpade som attans men det finns banne mig en Gud som älskar mig trots all ond jag gör. Nu till 2013 har jag minsann svurit att ägna mig åt saker som faktisk leda nånstans dvs 1. sluta jaga det senaste modet', 2. Vara mer mig själv, 3. Lägga fokus på mina studier än att surfa för det senaste foundation( det här kommer från min bästis som oxå tänker samma sak).
2013 ska vara ett år fylld med kärlek och kamp. Ska fokusera på skolan och mitt livs kärlek, jag lovar mig själv att umgås med mina få äkta kompisar än alldeles för många falska. Jag ska framförallt reparera vänskapen mellan mig och mami.
Det här ska nog gå.
Tackar för mig.

Jan-1-2013

I had an amazing new years Eve celebration. I spent the entire evening and night until 4:00 am with him and his family. Life kant get better than that. I love that kid to death coz he completes me.
About something else, i really gats to start doing revision, school work and all that shiet.

Am so exhausted so i just wanted to check in here really quick coz i promised to blog more. happy 2013 once again folkzzz.