A better day today

Today has been a usual normal day but better than the other days ive had. I was less busy today which gave me lots of time to think of stuff (i actually hate thinking but have to do it anyways), Nah i have been feeling sorry for myself lately but that has to stop because honestly there are people in worse conditions. One of my friends lost an aunt and she was literally crying allll day at school and of course i was there for her. Nah this doesnt mean i felt better but it got me thinking that i should instead focus on the positive going on in my life than letting minor issues destroy me.Starting with I, with my right hand raised, promise to always care for people but never ever expect the same from them because i always end in tears.
Oh yepp i have to swear on more stuff.
2. I promise to stop shopping (hehehe this does not apply for my make up)
3. I promise to stop getting my anger out on others. Especially my friends
4. I promise to always think that men are self centered idiots/babies with no brain cells. Hehehe
5. I promise to never rely on anyone.

Anyhu am off to clean my house coz am getting company tomorrow. Gotta cook my school lunch, study for my minor test tomorrow and of course see if I can get medicine to block my thinking brain or may be just sleep.

Misery business

This week oh my goodness. It's been crazy busy and I thank God for that bse I got heavy weights on my shoulders, things that I can't take care of, very outta ma league. Am slowly but surely loosing the most valuable "thing" in my life. Things out of my reach are forcing me to do that. Gaaaah I hate it but am strong, I am a strong woman (Beyonce voice). Am strong both mentally and physically. Because I decided to take a vacation last weekend, I've been behind in school but am surely catching up and that's why the late nights at school. Damn am such a fighter so am doing good and catching up where I should.
Can't wait for my babes to roll in at my place on Friday coz that means paaaaaarty.
Anyhu, imma take ma sad ass and sleep this early as I've done this entire week. Am strong.

It's sad

life can be sad, very sad at times. Its weird how you can change from being the happiest girl to crying your mascara off and your eye sockets literally jumping out. So many insecurities, way too many Ifs and buts spinning in the brain confusing one are just making life not worth living. Though I won't complain a lot bse than God am too upshot the straight. Soon or later, I gotta meet my demons but I will take that the ,not now, it's too much for tiny me to handle. Nah why do I put myself in such situations? Mtcheeeeeeeeew.
I wish I could just leave errrrthang and just be, but it's to hard when it involves others. You can't, I can't just let go and let be. This is when I wish I was a vampire who felt nothing.

Late nite thoughts. Am out

NUDITY

Naaaah not that kinda nudity yall thinking. Am talking nude lips folks. That's my new obsession. I've always tried nude lips but hhaaaa I looked like a starving 14 year old but thank God for YouTube, the secret behind descent or nice looking nude lips on women of colour is using lip liners. TRUST me when I say that you can't pull off a nude lip (Esp blacks) without a lip liner. Go get m.a.c (cork or chestnut) or nyx (espresso). It's worth the investment. Nah I just bought my lip liner mac chestnut a couple of days ago. So what have I been using in the mean time? Well I have a couple of soft eye pencils in brown and coffee colours. Too dark of course but blend blend blend blend and all looks very gorgeous. I've so far ordered the following nudes. With both pink/red undertones or purpleish/grey. I get away with them coz of the lip liners.

SLEEK - LIQUEUR

SLEEK - SUCCUMB

ISADORA - 28 CHOCOLATE BROWN

PICS BORROWED FROM THEIR RESPECTIVE WEBSITES
Nah thats my tiny collection so far. oooooh i smile everytime i put them on. They may look the same but they have different undertones. Succumb is my favourite. Oh btw Sleek probably has the cheapest but best quality make up. I ordered some stuff from them and it took like 5 days for it to come from uk to Sweden. Everything was very gorgeous and pigmented (especially the blushes). So sleek is my new best friend. I still love make up store but it is a little bit expensive.

Wrecking that

Am not a fun of Miley and certainly didn't thumbs up her MTV performance but dayyyyum am in love with this song. You go Miley, go get that cash.