Samsung Galaxy S 111

so am in a good mood. yeeey. LOl havent blogged for a while coz am busy living life, i suggest yall do the same<3. Scholl? its ka boom boom on top. Been at ma mums house for like a week. Nope, i dont hate her anymore, we be like friends i guess? Dont wanna explain but we yall good. Love ma fam<3

Am in a best mood today coz imma get a new toy. yepp u had it SAMSUNG GALAXY S 111. I loove taking pics and videos and what not. I have an iphone but am getting tired of it. So lets see what this new toy has to offer. I totally promise to fill u in on the pros and cons. yall stay stuned and pse stay in sch.

lots av luv

calm after the storm

These past weeks been nothing but crazy. Ouffff. I feel so empty right now. Been studying more than 12 hours everyday+ work and now all of a sudden am home not doing anything. Crazy
Been lots of sleepless nites but now that am free, I wake at 6am. 6 freaking am. Am tired both mentally and physically but that's ok coz this is what uni life is. Am doing a tough masters programme. It will be worth in the end. Trying to convince myself:).

Anyhu, am in a good mood. Hehehe don't know where am getting it from but this day been great for sho. I promise to blog more and swear less. Lol

Good nite y'all <3

E X H A U S T E D

Yepp that's rite, am sooooo exhausted but gotta keep going on for just a couple of days. I got ma Organic chemistry exam on Monday so for the past weeks, I've been doing loooots lots I literally mean lots of revision. At sch at around 8am, not leaving until 10pm. Hehehehehe kinda laugh at myself when I say that coz then people will prolly think "u beta pass that exam". Lol. Wish it was that easy.
Am in a splendid mood today despite my tiredness coz ma friends are the best, mwaaaah to them<3.
Y'all have an amazing weekend. I will spending mine at uni. God bless y'all

Feeling alone

Today is the day am tired, regretful, feeling ugly, useless, not noticed but worst of all, lonely. Am feeling down, for the first time in my life, I feel like painting ma entire body red with a razor. Goose bumps rise on ma body when I think about the pain but a feeling of satisfaction just covers that feeling.
Am studying at uni but doubting every single day if am capable of doing this! Wat if I fail? My so called mum will prob laugh out loud and even fall off a stool. Crazy shiet.
Euff am getting all big these days. Wish I was anorexia so that I could stay away from food. Ya ya ya, I know it's a deadly disease but watta hell. I NEED to stay away frm food.  I HAVE TOO.
Got an oral test tomorrow so am off to sleep and wish for the best<3.


Crazy life

Nite thoughts

Pheeeew. Have had a hard week yo. Tsssss sch is literally killing me. Trying to sleep but I can't coz of these thoughts.
I always wondered how and why someone would hate their parents. Now I know why. Am seriously developing a massive hatred towards ma so called mum. Pssssst. Am so afraid to admit the hatred coz I fear God is seriously gonna punish me😩. She really is destroying my life that woman. But most importantly, she is destroying my siblings life. We y'all are grown ups but she treating us like dogs, beating us and a shaming us in front av otha pple. Sometimes I wonder wat goes on in her head. She never ever ever never says sorri wen she wrongs us. She will instead just pretend like nothing happened.
Oh I feel this rage. God have mercy on mr😡. I remember so many things she put me thru since I was kid but asch, that's another story. Cried ma bills out during the wknd coz of everything she does. I really hope she has a good life ALL ALONE.

F*^%

@work

Wazzzzup yall psychos. Me is at work making em pounds. pounds? eh, making them dollars. ouff, pounds sounds beta so me go with dat;) yeah.
This wknd is both good and bad. Good coz am with the love of ma lyfe. Best partner in the entire world. Dont understand how he put up with me but he really is patient and all that. luv him;) naaw.
Bad thing is that ma family aint stable at all. Just the thought makes me sick. I hate some of my family members. Not mentioning any coz am afraid God might punish me. though i really hate HATE them. shiet.
I cried lots yesterday but ma boo thang really took care of me. Did i meantion that i love him?

Anyhu, back to work.

fuck off yall.

Sorri. bad mood

Organic chemisty

Yep. Organic chem it is. That shit is soooo hard. Am having hell at sch. Literally. We doing labaratory work till 8pm for 2wks. And then have to present the whole thingi. Bite me.
A week later, we will be doing exams. Kill me.
The only positive side is that ma lab partner is good and smart so helps me a lot. Plus the entire group am in is a m a z i n g. We really have fun and pple really help. That's wats up.
Anyhow, just came home, imma eat and watch soccer, then sleep coz sch will calling tomorrow.

Ciao

Monday day

It's Monday and am feeling ok. No am feeling better coz luv av am life is really a m a z i n g😘.
I really need New Years resolution even though I know that it's kinda late/early for that.
1. Need to stop hurting ma babez. Not ok. Even if I never do it on purpose
2. Getting in shape coz am tired of being fatttttty
3. Stop allowing pple to use me. Fuck them users, welcome the new me=biatch
4. I really have to stop annoying ma luv. Not ok, not ok, not ok. Feels like am trying to change poor thing. Which is bad coz all we amazing just the way we are. Take it or leave it. Fuuuuuuuuck

Otherwise, am having a crazy week. Sch till 20:00, work and then of course working out. Yeah buddy.

Ciao.