Back to reality

Have had an ok weekend. Am kinda sad and frustrated coz I never feel appreciated by ma siblings. I do everything and anything for those creatures but it never is enough. Material stuff is far more important to them than sharing with me. One of them. I get sad pretty much anytime I visit that one of them. Don't know why i keep coming? May be its coz I always think and hope its different. Yeeeeek, hate maself.
The worst thing is that I take out ma anger to the luv av ma life. Poor thang. Trying to change but I got all this anger built in me. Watever
Anyhu, I bought a fridge. Yeeeey. Decided to just do it coz I've been working ma ass off the entire summer so am kinda rewarding maself. Will go shopping lots(even though I never shop) next month.
Already feeling better coz am
On ma way back home.

Fuck family. Or not. I love each one of them but sometimes. Grrrrerh

helllo

Wazzzup yall. Feelin better coz am at work, working hard. Working makes me forget most things that give me anxiety. Glad;)
After work, will be travelling to ma sis for the weekend. yey. The entire family will be there so am psyched bout that. Hope i dont get sad coz things can be wierd in our family. And am happy about everything atm. Feeling good bse of the cash in flow. Working ma butt off so i can afford the finest things in life<3. oh yeah. Guess am not a poor church mouse anymore ha? beta stop this nosense be4 all the cash disappears. I beggo.

yall have a wonderful weekend. Will see if i get the tim to blog.
peace out

whatever

Am so anxiuos and insecure about lots of stuff. I always come off confident and happy but its the otha way round sometimes. I hate freaking facebook, it makes me feel bad and start stalking my friends who "appear" to have better lives while am lonely. Did i mention that am in a long distance relationship? ma life sucks attimes even though the love of my life is everything one would wish for and more. love love love.

Anyhu, i havent been going to uni the past days coz am tired of being ignored by ma bff. Dont get me wrong, i have lots of friends but this special friend of mine is someone i laugh with about silly things and se sure understand each otha, beta than i do with otha people. euff

taking deep breaths. I really need to update my closet. Coz all ma clothes are ugly as hell. And ive started training so i can get back to ma normal self, well trained and looking fly.

fuck life. depression on its way?

fuck. Hope yall have worse days than mine

wazzzup.

I got a thousamd things to do. School and work but decided to add one more thing on ma to do list. One more important thing.Training;) oh yeah. ive started playing football again and am excited for sure. my entire body is numb atm but am ka boom boomlicious. 

About the wknd? now work, just partyyyyyyy as we students di. Life is good. sometimes.

capish

confused as usual

yall alive? Hope so. Just came back to ma home. yeeey. Spent the wknd at ma mum´s house in Gothenburg. It was kinda nice. it usually isnt `nice´ when it comes to me an ´d my mommi. we gotta a bitter sweet relationship but this time we were good.
am sooo tired and confused about lots of stuff. Feels like am committing to way more stuff than i can handle. Biting off more than i can chew. Uni is demanding as hell, work is calling, planning on starting to play fotball again, working part time for student nation and friend. phufff. God help me.
Got so much on my mind but will def fill this blog with ma tiny brainy words. its late and am tired so fuck off.