NEW YEAR'S EVE

Crazy, it's new New Year's Eve tomorrow. Time flys....is it flies or flys? Flys sounds more correct. Ok time flys. 2013 has a been a good damn year. I've never felt so alive (I know it's such a cliche), I've never felt so whole like I've felt this year. This been a good year and I kinda wish it doesn't end but we gotta move forward yall, we damn gotta move forward. All good things come to an end but its those hard/bad times that remind us of how strong we are. I got no new year resolutions this time around, nope. Imma just go with the flow hehehehehe and try to be positive.

Am always planning my New Year's Eve every year. Where's the party? What are we gonna do? Such a hustle. Well yall know what, am not doing any of that this year. Nope. Am just sitting back and just following ma man. It doesn't matter what we are doing that day as long as we are together, with each other on that day. He talked about some parties here n there but I don't care (well I kinda do coz I've bought a dress for that) but am not hyping about me. The new me? Hmm let's see how long this calmness lasts. 

Ciao

2013

You've been an amazing year to me. I honestly don't want this year to end but all good things...... Hahaha no no nothing is coming to an end. I hope for am even better year. I've achieved lots of stuff in this year and actually became a much happier person. I've literally lived my life and had fun for once. 

Lets start this resume backwards

SEPTEMBER - DECEMBER

Autumn to winter.

Autumn is my favourite season simply because of the colours and I actually like dressing up with layers and sweaters which makes autumn perfect. It's cold enough to wear a sweater but not that cold.....depending on where you live obviously. Plus, like I wrote, it's gooooorg<3.

Sch started in September and I was ready because I had had lots of time during the summer and I actually missed school (pse don't hold me account on this when I start nagging on sch). Anyhu sept throughout October, I was being a good girl going to the gym, studying hard, working and of course being a good girlfriend.

November. Stupid November. The hardest month that tested my patience, my relationship and how much I actually need my family. November reminded of how ma little sis has grown<3. November was damn hard and I've never felt depressed as I did during that month. It was the first time I hated autumn/winter and the darkness it brings with it. I longed for warm countries n summer. I thank God for putting me through that. I thank the almighty for my sister and most importantly thank him for bringing me the most understanding, patient, handsome and caring boyfriend. I wouldn't be anywhere without him even though I never admit it.....til now<3

Deceeeeeeember. Happy month. I've literally killed it at university where I've felt like super woman this term. Hehehehehe fingers cross that I keep that going. I've eaten lots and travelled lots.....to only one person. Hehehehehe. Am at ma's house atm just shopping my brains away, eating like there ain't tomorrow and damn it I gotta study. Will start tomorrow. Promise.

Off to slumberland. Ciao psychos

ABOUT ME

So let's start with what I like about me

1. Don know what otherz think but me thinks me can dance, shake ma ass till whatever. 

2. Am not shy but will or can be when necessary.

3. If I love or like you as a person, I will be the most caring/loving friend y'all ever hand. 

4. Me is black as charcoal, curvey with a flat nose n damn proud proud about it. 

5. Am a healthy. Not all the time but I always take care of my body>3.

6. I got lots of love to give, way too much. 

NOW TO WHAT I HATE ABOUT MASELF

1. I easily get outta place, irritated, pissed n angry. Shot tempered

2. I like things being done MY WAY or else we got a problem. Lol na that doesn't work in a relationship. 

3. Am obsessed with make up nowadays even though am not good at using it.

4. Am judgemental. :(:(:( theeee worst thing about me.

5. Forgive n forget, especially forget doesn't exist in my world. 

6. You don't wanna cross me coz I always seek revenge and never ever forget people who wrong me.

THIS WEEKEND

Am spending this weekend with the love of my life<3. We just hanging out, try a working out coz he is obsessed but most importantly we tryna having the best time we can together;);). So yeah am a happy creature atm.
In two week, I will be heading to my folks. Can't wait coz I lurrrve me mami's food. Oh btw am totally not feeling the holiday season this year. Nope. Am just dreaming myself away to the sun, summer, beach and what not. I think it's coz I had THEEEE best summer this past summer. Take me back someone.

Anyhu have a great weekend yall and remember to tell you significant others how much you appreciate em. Cuddles

I HAVE A BLOG?

Wow I have a blog. Hehehehehe
Well well, how have I Been? I actually don't know, got mixed feelings. 2013 is coming to an end and oh my what a roller coaster it's been. November was without doubt the most challenging month, the hardest time I've ever gone through in this precious life of mine. Chaiiii.
Anyhu right now I feel like I've found myself again, I feel like the whole me and life is being kinda nice to me. I really wanna sum up the year but we still got a month to go so imma wait coz lots can happen in a month.
About school. Yall know how hard sch is, yall know how damn hard university is. Well, this semester, I've classified myself as Einstein's family coz God damn I've been on fire this semester. Being able to work, maintain my strained relationship and do well at uni? High five to moi. But all that hasn't come without hard work. I've literally been doing revision from day freakin 1. It's amazing how school makes me happy. Apart from family, food and boyfriend, school is another thing that gives me joy. Tiiiiiihihi (laughin like Tamar Braxton).

Anyhu nite nite

Oh btw the snow is finally hurrrrr and God damn it this country is one big freezer.

November 7th 2013

That was yesterday. Yesterday is a day I will NEVER forget as long as I live. That's why am writing about it here so I don't forget. I've been In good spirits lately. I kinda knew it wouldn't last very long coz I got disturbing news yesterday, very unexpected and quiet frankly am still in denial. I know I have only myself to blame and am gonna fix this. All this will be taken care of in about 2 weeks and if it can't be taken care of then hell will be the leading word in my life. 

Gosh am such a coward and a cry baby. Yesterday was the first time I really got scared and started analysing my not rather eventful life. I got scared and started crying. I cried for atleast an hour til I slept. Thank God I feel better today because am coming around and trying to be calm. I hate myself for being lousy coz this could have been avoided.

Anyhu LEARN FROM YOUR MISTAKES they say and am sure as hell learning the hard way. I better stop writing before I burst in tears again. Am off

Happy me

Hej hello ho hai happy people<3. Missed my blog actually. I've been one happy girl lately may be because of  make up? Sleek makeup? Hahahaha no nooooooo no am just in a better mood these days. It's my boy who is too nice to me these days. Wonder why? Eh eh

Anyhu,  was out dancing with my girls last week and if am not mistaken, a girl tried to pick me up. Can you imagine, A GIRL folks. Lol the coward I am, I quickly headed for the exist. Nah I can handle guys hitting on me but girls? Hha I get scared. I got nothing on homosexuals coz some of my family members are homosexual and even some close friends so its not like am homophobic but it's something about girls that scares me. I can just yell at a guy and ask him to rot off somewhere else but I can't be rude to a girl. Hehehehehehe
May be I look gay? H,m will have to ask my boo that. Anyhu, happy Monday folks. Am off to do some studying. Kisses

A better day today

Today has been a usual normal day but better than the other days ive had. I was less busy today which gave me lots of time to think of stuff (i actually hate thinking but have to do it anyways), Nah i have been feeling sorry for myself lately but that has to stop because honestly there are people in worse conditions. One of my friends lost an aunt and she was literally crying allll day at school and of course i was there for her. Nah this doesnt mean i felt better but it got me thinking that i should instead focus on the positive going on in my life than letting minor issues destroy me.Starting with I, with my right hand raised, promise to always care for people but never ever expect the same from them because i always end in tears.
Oh yepp i have to swear on more stuff.
2. I promise to stop shopping (hehehe this does not apply for my make up)
3. I promise to stop getting my anger out on others. Especially my friends
4. I promise to always think that men are self centered idiots/babies with no brain cells. Hehehe
5. I promise to never rely on anyone.

Anyhu am off to clean my house coz am getting company tomorrow. Gotta cook my school lunch, study for my minor test tomorrow and of course see if I can get medicine to block my thinking brain or may be just sleep.

Misery business

This week oh my goodness. It's been crazy busy and I thank God for that bse I got heavy weights on my shoulders, things that I can't take care of, very outta ma league. Am slowly but surely loosing the most valuable "thing" in my life. Things out of my reach are forcing me to do that. Gaaaah I hate it but am strong, I am a strong woman (Beyonce voice). Am strong both mentally and physically. Because I decided to take a vacation last weekend, I've been behind in school but am surely catching up and that's why the late nights at school. Damn am such a fighter so am doing good and catching up where I should.
Can't wait for my babes to roll in at my place on Friday coz that means paaaaaarty.
Anyhu, imma take ma sad ass and sleep this early as I've done this entire week. Am strong.

It's sad

life can be sad, very sad at times. Its weird how you can change from being the happiest girl to crying your mascara off and your eye sockets literally jumping out. So many insecurities, way too many Ifs and buts spinning in the brain confusing one are just making life not worth living. Though I won't complain a lot bse than God am too upshot the straight. Soon or later, I gotta meet my demons but I will take that the ,not now, it's too much for tiny me to handle. Nah why do I put myself in such situations? Mtcheeeeeeeeew.
I wish I could just leave errrrthang and just be, but it's to hard when it involves others. You can't, I can't just let go and let be. This is when I wish I was a vampire who felt nothing.

Late nite thoughts. Am out

NUDITY

Naaaah not that kinda nudity yall thinking. Am talking nude lips folks. That's my new obsession. I've always tried nude lips but hhaaaa I looked like a starving 14 year old but thank God for YouTube, the secret behind descent or nice looking nude lips on women of colour is using lip liners. TRUST me when I say that you can't pull off a nude lip (Esp blacks) without a lip liner. Go get m.a.c (cork or chestnut) or nyx (espresso). It's worth the investment. Nah I just bought my lip liner mac chestnut a couple of days ago. So what have I been using in the mean time? Well I have a couple of soft eye pencils in brown and coffee colours. Too dark of course but blend blend blend blend and all looks very gorgeous. I've so far ordered the following nudes. With both pink/red undertones or purpleish/grey. I get away with them coz of the lip liners.

SLEEK - LIQUEUR

SLEEK - SUCCUMB

ISADORA - 28 CHOCOLATE BROWN

PICS BORROWED FROM THEIR RESPECTIVE WEBSITES
Nah thats my tiny collection so far. oooooh i smile everytime i put them on. They may look the same but they have different undertones. Succumb is my favourite. Oh btw Sleek probably has the cheapest but best quality make up. I ordered some stuff from them and it took like 5 days for it to come from uk to Sweden. Everything was very gorgeous and pigmented (especially the blushes). So sleek is my new best friend. I still love make up store but it is a little bit expensive.

Wrecking that

Am not a fun of Miley and certainly didn't thumbs up her MTV performance but dayyyyum am in love with this song. You go Miley, go get that cash.

Am not lost

I've been away from Internet for quite some time. Yessss I chose to do just that, live my life without connection. This summer has been one of the nest summers I've even had. I worked full time June and July, studied in the beginning of August coz I had a retake but now am free. Oh am free. They say work hard n play hard......I've literally done that. The fact that the weather has been nice to us was a bonus.
Am now sitting in my student apartment waiting for mami to come visit me and some friends. We yall will be travelling next week. But first, outings, party and what not in this tiny city. I've really missed my blog btw.

Eh weird that I had a lot to tell but whilst writing, it all went away. Anyhu, am back on track so that means blogging full time. At least everyday.

Hugs

10 things about me

1. Am 100% African.

2. I easily get jealous. Not when it comes to my boyfriend but everything else.

3. I can speak 4 languages fluently.

4. Am in my early 20s and have only had one boyfriend. My current

5. I've never drunk alcohol in my life thus never been tipsy. 

6. I prefer living in rural areas to urban but I cannot live without noise and lots of people.

7. I easily get irritated, even at the slightest things. Short tempered

8. Am a football nerd.

9. I secretly wish I didn't have to study.

10. Am in love

Last one 

11. I have a tendency of taking pictures of the country side or forests whenever I get the chance. Here are a few. 

THIS WEEK

- I've worked every single day and gone out every single day. Regrets every morning but I never learn.
- I've been to the movies 3 times this week. Iron Man, Man of Steel and Fast n Furious were on the menu. The last named was the best<3.
- I cut my hair very very very short. Almost nothing left. I now look like a starving African little boy. Hahahaha ma mami was like "a young lady like you should have nice looking hair. Eh
I quietly thought to myself "don't need no bwoyy admiring me coz am married and you don't know about it. Ha
- I officially love Nigerians. Coolest Africans I beg.
- once and for roll, I gave in and bought very good and quiet expensive make up brushes. Now I look a zillion bucks with make up on.
-  Because of my work, my fashion sense is at its worst and it kills me but its very comfortable I have to confess. I don't spend hours choosing clothes. Just sweats and am good to go.
- Miss my man.

Good nite dolllllls

That Feeling

You are sick. Coughing and headache won´t leave you. You are tired and restless, very poor coz you have spent the last pennies on yesterday´s festivs. It is 1:30 am and you can´t sleep even though you will be starting work at eight am, in just a few hours. Everything happening to you should be frustrating but for some reason you aint frustrated. Not a bit. Nothing happening to you right now can change your mood because hha!!!! for once, you have that huge grin on your face that no one can smack away because FOR ONCE you are satisfied with your life and all you have accomplished. It is an amazing feeling.

PERSONALLY

Am honestly obsessed with this song. Nigerians are wicked and do kick ass videos.

Thought i liked the Davido-Gobe but this one is ma new favourite. Aaaaah

Midsummer

Today is midsummer eve and poor me worked from 6:30 till 3pm. I don't even know why am writing poor me coz I was actually happy to get work today coz I wasn't doing anything the entire day til late evening. Anyhu we got to eat goooood Swedish food at work. Cooked irish potatoes, herring with chives, mayonnaise and sour cream. Oh and dessert, it was strawberry and ice cream. Typical Swedish food if u ask me. It was really good.

Now that am done with work, am determined to continue my celebration somewhere else so am off...........

Oh oh did i mention that I passed my gigantic fysiology exam that I did for 2 wks ago? With flying colours. Hha am such a genius. There is no doubt am related to Einstein. Ok bye

Happy weekend folks 

Summer is definitely here

Woop woop am so excited about.......nothing. I just feel free from my books and everything that has to do with school. The sun is out and am enjoying every bit of my summer job. I don't work everyday which is a plus coz I can then run around town without having to spare energy for work. Feels great.

And it kinda feels weird living at my mum's place which btw is crowded. Not an issue coz growing up, I have always had people around me. The only weird thing is that am so used to doing things MY way. Like taking a pop in the toilet and not have to close the door.  Hehehehe it's just a minor thing but makes a huge difference. Am used to going around my apartment half naked bah not these days. Anyhu no worries it's fun being with my family. And oh did I mention how relieved I am not to have to cook for myself every single day? 

Aaaaaaaand I get to hang out with the love of my life whenever I want<3. 

Here is a nice pic of beautiful flowers outside my in-laws house. 

Too much thinking

You know that moment. No no, those minutes or hours or days that you spend thinking about the kind of person you are. The kind of friend, partner, sister, aunt or whatever.....How you act towards other people. Am that kind of person who is very good at finding faults in others (sadly). Ive been told that and i myself know that. I never speak out loud but it always comes to my mind. These past days have had my tiny brain thinking about life and what i want from it. I have especially been thinking of how I am as a person and meeeeen i kinda do not like what am capable of. I have hypocrisy tendencies and even though i love hard, i hate even harder. I got trust issues and that is why I always give the people that care about me a hard time which actually has negative repercussions coz i end up loosing them instead.
Why is it so hard to see a bright future? Why is it so hard to find the good in myself? Yeah i know we yall have those things called pros and cons but the latter seems to be in color while the pros are black and white thus barely seen.
These past weeks, ive been trying to boost myself a little bit. Skip the make up and try not to care too much about my hair. Going to dinner alone and the movies. Trying to make it through an entire day by being honest and as humble and helpful as i can be (My mom thinks am drugged coz am too nice to her). There are genuinely nice people out there, very nice friends i got. I always wonder how they do it. So damn honest and beautiful inside out. How? Can someone teach me coz I feel tired of being brutal even when i dont have to.

All these wicked thoughts started because I have started watching PRETTY LITTLE LIARS. I do not like the series that much but I always have nothing to do after work so it keeps me busy. Am not hooked but cannot stop watching it and i see myself in every bad thing each character does. It is a horrible feeling.

Anyhu. I got summer holidays but got myself a summer job and am loving it.

WOW

Wow. Am officially off junk food. For now.

FINALLY

Finally, i have summer holidays. I did my last exam yesterday and woop woop am free for 3 months. Best feeling if you ask me. Dunno how the exam wait but am getting my results in 2 weeks;(.
Anyhu, i have been super busy doing me these past days. Just pleasing people and making sure they know that they mean much to me.
yesterday, i was on my way home to my parents, on a plane. I sat next to a gentle man who insisted on looking my way the entire flight. Every time i tried to surf the net on my iPad or phone, he wanted to see what i was doing. That kind of crap pisses me off. I literally had to hold my iPad just inches from my chin in order to prevent the psycho from seeing what i was doing.  May be he was bored bah hey mind your own business. I felt at cursing him, after all its a hobbit of mine. Unfortunately
Who does that? Its just rude to eavesdrop or read someones else´s private stuff. The same applies to people with long necks on buses trying to read other people´s texts. grrrrrh

Otherwise, am fine. Just in a good mood waiting for my summer job to start. Am so lucky.

happy holidays folks

GRADUATION

It is that time of the year when students graduate here in Sweden. Graduate from high school. I really do not understand why we celebrate high school graduation and not university. It is weird ha? Anyhu, it prolly doesnt matter coz the feeling when graduating cannot be described. It has been a couple of years since i graduated(from high school) yet it feels like yesterday. I remember injuring my foot while playing football the day before. The entire foot was swollen when the big day came but I swear i did not feel a thing because iÏ was too excited. I remember not being able to sleep the night before, Staring at my walls, it was the longest night of my life.
Me and my friends longed for graduation day. But now, i kinda wish that day never came because being in high school was one of the best tings i have done in life. But again, if i did not graduate, then i would not have started university and met amazing people and of course experiencing everything am going through. Yes even the tears that come with all the assignments i have to hand in. I now realize how spoon fed we were in high school. The teachers used to literally chase us and beg us to hand in our work, while at uni pufffffff your own garbage hunny,no one cares.
All yall graduating, I wish yall the best day. Have fun and please yall who like to dance, shake that behind like it aint nobodys business. Make sure you hug your friends tightly coz you might never see them again. Graduation day is really a beautiful sight.

Good nite dolls

You ok?

I've had an amazing and effective week. Been able to juggle sch, work and my gym training. All that seemed to go well till  today. Sitting with my eyes red from sobbing, I've never felt this lonely. I am trying to remember last nights event coz that's when I was all smiles out dancing with my friends bah all that seems to be blurry.
The weird thing is that am sobbing while trying to do some studying (Multi tasking for sure). Am trying to hold back my tears while talking to a friend on the phone. She asks me if am alright and I "naturally" answer that all is good and then go ahead and lie that mum is calling and I hang up. Weird ha? You've ever asked anyone how they are and they give u a genuine answer. "God morning Lillian, how are you?" Oh well ma mum hit me last night and am all bruised so am not alright. You ever get that?
Why is that we are always feeling good? That everything is what it is? I kinda uderstand that when you meet new people, you have to put on a front and not be selling out all your wardrobe garbage coz them honey  you are the weirdo. But then I don't understand why it's like that. Why is it weird not to just spill your garbage to anyone coz we yall got our own garbage after all. Frustratin.
I think it's a matter of trust and confident. To be able to own up your damn problems and not be ashamed of them, to be able to talk about everything without anyone judging you or using your problems against you. Twisted world.
Unfortunately, am one of those people. Am one of the pretenders who puts up a front and won't tell anyone anything. Am one of them who prefers waking up in the middle of the night and start crying very very quietly so no one would notice my rage and pain. I am a pretender and I hate it bah one thing am grateful for, since I started university, I've met wonderful people who are honest. They are disgustingly honest that I envy them. I get to listen to stories, genuine stories about their lives. From how and when they woke up, to what and how they swallowed their last meal of the day. Yes they are disgustingly honest.

Oh well, my tears have now dried up, I better get back to my studying. And now I don't remember the purpose of this post.

Have a nice weekend folks

Whyhowwhichwherewhy

Feels like my head is in transit. Like I've lost all my brain cells. I don't know how to feel. It's weird bah I just don't how to feel atm. Good things are happening, have happened but bad things are happening, have happened. They are happening parallel with each other. I feel like am about to cry but I can't, no I won't cry. I refuse to shade a tear (exhale in and out). 

One thing I have to stop doing is expecting. I do things, nice things to or for people and expect them to treat me right. Am not like buying maself love bah like...,,,, fwack it. Can't explain coz am too agitated and its late. Am stopping right here before I go bazack and start swearing. 

Am off 

This is too beautiful

Thank you Scarlet's diary for reminding me of these two beautiful creatures.  I follow em on YouTube but hadn't seen there videos in a while. Folks, you need Kleenex for this video. I just wanna get married nooooooow. But I can't, no I can't.

Wish u two all the happiness there is.

Broken hurts

I haven't been blogging coz nothing interesting been happening in my life. Just long days at sch and work. Of course gym oh and I've been baking a lot these days. Don even know where I get the strength coz am always exhausted.

Anyhu, one of my closest, bestest, buddy loving friends just broke up with her almost 2yr bwoyy (they were making 2yrs in August). She really hasn't told me why coz every time she tries to, she just breaks into tears. Am kinda sensing its her fault coz she even didn't tell me in the first place. I only realised they werent together coz he had taken away all pics of her from Instagram n Facebook. Yeah I know best friends should talk but she eventually will tell me. I know that. 

The point if this post is to actually encourage all broken hearts out there that its ok too feel down, to be angry. Cry out for Gods sake all that rage. Soon or later, it will go away. Time for sure heals all wounds. Just know that being single only means discovering yourself, getting to know you and just live your amazing life until the right one shows up coz you honestly are amazing and if anyone cannot see that they aren't good enough for you.  Put on your usual fabulous clothes, make up, optimism that you always have and damn it smile coz you always preach how important smiles are.

I am honoured to have the best man by my side but it took endless years of being single, being my fabulous self and of course my Tom boy years that led me to think that that was the reason I was single. Oh gosh. But the main reason was no one was good enough. They were too tall, too shabby, too black, too white.......too of everything. Those were just excuses. Anyhu, even though am in a relationship, I make sure it doesn't define who I am. Nope, no. I am still my fabulous, over talkative, beautiful, amazing, exquisite self and yall are. 

Just love. Good nite dollz

Am damaged for life

Wazzzzzap;)

I actually have not been that busy but could not be bothered to blog coz its been very hot outside and i cannot be sitting and blogging. helllll NO. Anyhu, am at sch nerding myself even though we technically got no sch today. Am behaving for sure. Gats to be heading to work soon though. Tough life.
I am taking physiology course at the moment and am reallly starting to be nerdy and my friends who take other courses find me weird these days. In physiology, we get to learn about different human organs and stuff. Yesterday, i did revision about the kidneys. Ha! its one of the most interesting organs people. So having understodd everything, i went home and all of a sudden i was very thirty for like 5 hours. Instead of just drinking water, i went ahead and called a friend and explained how something is wrong with ma kidneys. Good lord. hahahhaah. It was comedy..
My friend just cursed at me and told me to get a life. lol (love u V). I never thought i would turn out like that. I mean am not the type to be very into my studies like that bah hey, i guess people change.
Anywaaaays, am learning about the nervous system now and all its electrical impulses. Not that fun.

Have a nice weekend dolls.


VERY FASCINATING ORGAN I RECKON.

Hez just all that and some more

Am with someone I have crazy dazy loads of fun with, laugh out loud with, cry childish tears with, smile with and even when silently watching tv, it's one of the best moments.
Hez too kind to me. I can see how he treats me, loves me and puts me in front of EVERYTHING. I never thought I would have that much impact on someone, I never thought someone will have that kinda impact on me. It's crazy. He makes me do stuff I never dreamt. Hhaa! I for sure make him do stuff. Hahahahaha just remembered how I convinced him to do a ridiculous thing. Quiet embarrassing but he went ahead and did it. We actually have been together for a couple of years now and we still have that googli boogli relationship with each other. Folks I tell you love exists.

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Procrastinating

Yeah am good at procrastinating. Doing everything apart from what i actually have to do. Anyhu, my blogging been wack and thats coz its been quiet festive over here. Met ma entire family and cousins and lots of other people so yeah party;). I thought yesterday was Sunday and that Today was Friday;). Lol but ma weekend is gonna be chill coz will just be catching up wiv the love of my life. Ma honey boo

Annnnnnd, i got some news. One of my closest friend and cousin let us know that he/she is homosexual. Ha! We just hugged and i was happy she/he told us coz i feel honored that they finally came out;) claps claps claps. Ive never had trouble with gay people, unlike my friends. Anyhu thats about it. Oh one thing, my day was amazing and i was dressed like a hippie. hehehe

Here is a photo i took today after my gym session. It was 7 pm but it was still light outside. Summer is sure comin. Nite dollz

Just rants

Ha! 9 a.m and am already awake. Am telling u am that old woman who can't sleep til noon. Oh well nothing to do.
Anyhu herez a list of things that ANNOY me to the maximum

. I hate people who repeat themselves. If I didn't say pardon please don't kill my ears with what I already know.
. People in front of me not holding the door. Ha! That's just rude. Here in Sweden, everyone is so polite in that way but if u go outside countries? It's a different story.
. Kants who decide to stare at you. Am just like didn't ur mum teach you any manners? You stare at me, we will have a staring contest, and then I will curse you.
. My mum does this alllll the time. While watching tv, she can just decide from nowhere that she wants to watch another program, in the middle of a program. She doesn't even Botha to ask what I think. After she's changed the channel, I just leave the sitting room. Like an hour later, shez like "ooh you were watching the program I changed?" Daaaaaah.
. Especially girls. Ignoring your friends just because you ve got into a new relationship. Very very common. This pisses the crap outta me.
. Last but not least, this one is the most annoying of them all. Hypocrites. Two faced people. People who pretend to be what they ain't. Aaaaaah. Am just like, the real you will surface no matter how many masks you put on. I know you are not the good girl u is portraying.
. Oh one more thing. How hard is it to say thank you or please? Ha? Just say thank you for God's sake. It's very polite I tell yall.
. Last one. When an old person comes on a bus, please please please people, stupid people, get up your fat behinds and let em sit. Poor old people. I just stare in disbelief when the bus driver has to tell the passengers to move for an old person. Smh

Three in the morning

It's 3 a.m. I just came back home from yet another wild night. Yeah I know it's a Monday bah c'mon am a student and young. Hehehe. Anyhu, came back kinda early today coz am working tomorrow (no sch). BUT will be staying out late tomorrow coz am freeeee on Wednesday.
I really can't sleep coz all that's on my mind is my boyfriend, my best friend, the love of my life, the one who loves and always puts me first. Oooooooooh. I really love and miss that kid. Last Saturday I went and bought him tiny mini, but expensive gifts. Hope he likes them. Will be seeing him this coming weekend so am ecstatic. That kid is too nice to me, he does everything for MY sake. It's like those cute guys in movies. I love you babe. Even though am tough and complicated to be with, hope u know that u are my everything (and yes I KNOW u read my blog even though u never admit it).

I really gats to sleep coz work will be calling in like 4hrs:(

Just thoughts

I wonder what makes people thinks its okey to comment on someone's body like 'you skinny ass' or 'you need to eat ' or something in that manner. By now everyone thinks or they claim they know that telling someone, especially girls that they are fat is a crime. Hahahahaha
I always laugh at that. Someone has created this 'ideal' image of how everyone should look like and if you dont look anywhere nere that , then bye bye. you are ugly sweetie. WTF! To me, it's just a bunch of bull crappy nonsense. Commenting on how skinny someone is, is as 'bad' or as damaging as commenting that they are fat and should Workout. Those kind of comments really send people to doing certain stuff that can be harmful. Why shape up my beautiful curvey or skinny body for people's liking?
All that doesn't matter as long as you are healthy but most importantly HAPPY and comfortable in your own skin. So this is a shout out to y'all who feel the need to comment other people's bodies or whatever. Comments like 'Hun you look great or amazing or something down that lane still exist you know.
So if you have nothing worth saying, just STFU. Am just saying.

I hate good byes

Yeah that's true I hate goodbyes. Imma be away from my friends a couple of days so we hang out a little 'extra' today. Yeah we always do that when one of us is going away. Anyhu, I have a headache coz I've laughed and talked way too much today. On the outside, one can think that me and my friends have nothing in common coz they are quiet reserved, very ambitious at school and very religious. Am just a tiny bit of all that BUT ha, don't let looks deceive you coz we are the same and that's why we laugh a lot. I Feel sorry for other people who try to hang out with us co they never get the jokes.
I already miss them but I gats to do something very very important and will for sure write it out here when everything is given the green light. Until then, be nice to each Otha.

Nite dollz

On my way to.....hopefully heaven

Effective day for sho

1. Studied. Check
2. Worked. Check
3. Hit the gym. Double check coz I went spinning and then went on to train my upper body for 45mins.
4. Ma boo decided to buy me summer outfits. Check
5. Cooked food
6. Am in a very very good mood. Triple check

Good nite dolls

Scarlett´s Diary

Bondibilala

Kisses...

Do you know what I've never grasped? Kissing! what is that? you put your lips on mine next you 

stick your tongue in mine, our tongues are frolicking and ooh wait what's that? Saliva -_-. 

Frankly thinking about it makes you erm I dunno.

However in the act it feels different, sometimes it's magical other times I'm like woah hold up 

there mister! they are lips okay not pop tarts, don't suck them all in like that. And what's with 

all that spitum? control your mouth! I'm telling you, you kiss some people and you swear off 

that act and others make you not want to ever seperate your lips again.

So this post of course is to those who think their lips are vacuum cleaners. I know there's no exact curriculum that teaches you how to kiss or date people or whatever. Except maybe they've introduced it into sex education but my point is it's tricky. I get it. You watch some movies and you cringe when they kiss like please breathe a little. How do you know just when to slip your tongue in? When to change the position of your head? Some guys yeah just want to paralyse your neck, like oya now lets switch. Yeah 

practise makes perfect, there's no denying that but if I may point out just one thing

YOU GOTTA START SLOW, KISS SLOWLY, GENTLY AT FIRST BEFORE YOU GET ALL 

PASSIONATE! Please do not start by sticking your tongue out first. What do you think 

you are? Salamander lizard? If you must practise, please do before you gnaw off his/her lips. Having said that I had an amazing kiss tonight. hehe goodnight

Love,
B

Two faced

That girl, the one that never shuts her mouth, that pretty one, is the moste insecure one. She hides her anger but mostly incarcerated pain. She is a ruthless vulgar person who has learned the hard way. She for sure is short tempered, impatient and cruel attimes because she knows no other way.
Like a magnet, people are drawn to her because of her manners, her smile and warmth she has. Always sorrounded by someone and smiling as usual, even then she still feels lonely. Only a few know the real her. Only a handful know how she hurts and how big a fasade she puts on. She is not a

girly girl despite being  make up and fashion crazy because sports is one of the things that keep her on the not so girly side. She over analyses happenings and has a not forgiving heart. She has a hard time moving on and actually doing something good in her life because she is constatly being reminded of her past that haunts her. Thats why she gets into fights. to forget everything.
Dont let her fancy pancy clothes, make up, all materialistic she owns deceive you. Nope. Its just a wall so the outside world wont ask any questions. This very girl longs to be loved and cared for. Yepp she has found a soul mate, even though she  keeps pushing him away. Trust issues. She hurts him every chance she gets even though she loves him unconditionally. And she is so sorry every single time. She doesnt know what to do or how to keep the man in her life;(

Part of me

So you are three friends that are very close. All know pretty much everything about each otha. Yall 3 got very strong personalities which is quiet disturbing how u can be friends and not clash. Well trust me, these 3 have for sure clashed several times but still love each other. One of the girls(Girl A) is kinda shy and very religious, as in modern religious. Leave alone these church goers who talk God here God there but they do evil acts, nope she is the person who is genuinely nice and will never ever talk anything bad about anyone. A true believer.
The second one(Girl B) has a boyfriend whom she cherishes like crazy. Its her first boyfriend though shez in her early 20s. She is fashion crazy and never hesitates to speak her mind. She can be controversial but only to annoy people who have nothing better to do than stalk her. heheheh

The third one(Girl C) is alot like the second girl. She has a biiiig mouth, as in she talks and talks and sometimes doesnt know when to shut it. She too is funny and I promise you will hear her voice wherever you go. Bah she is soooo loving and caring and she will just crack you up. She kinda of is a man hater who honestly wants someone but been hurt too many times that everyone who tries, she will just scare them off.
Now these 3 girls are all A students at University and are all aspiring pharmacists  They talk about everything and anything. Both nasty and innocent stuff. Though a conflict came up one day. A guy liked girl A. She didnt know what to think but told us she could have liked him if he were a little bit cute. save to say, he is ugly. Girl B stated that he kinda is adorable while girl C when on to agree and joke about how ugly he actually is. A year later, girl A is actually in love with the "not so cute" guy and gdaaaang she loves him. Now just bse these girls are super close, girl C thinks she can say whatever. So every single day she reminds girl A of how ugly her man is. Girl B doesnt say a word coz she knows that a girl in love will never ever wanna hear anything bad about their man.
Anyhu, this goes on for several weeks. Girl C joking about girl A´s man. "Oh look the ugly one is coming down the corridor" she snapped attimes. So one day girl A just burst out in tears. I swear she bowled. Th3y yall were taken aback coz it was surprising. She was crying these enormous gigantic tears coz she had held in alot of her anger inside her towards girl C. She was mumbling why anyone would torture her with bad words describing her man. It was so hurt breaking. Girl c was of course surprised but they yall hugged in silence. It was only the sniffing that could be heard in the air, but all girls knew that they had learnt a lesson.
To always say when something is bothering you, to for God´s not make bad jokes about other people´s boyfriends NO MATTER HOW CLOSE YOU ARE to someone, coz no one is perfect and to of course talk to your friends if you feel what they are doing or how they are acting is not correct.

Just grey

Friday ha? Am not that excited. It's like the first time am not celebrating coz it's weekend. I am working and have lots of studies plus I figured I can use a break this time around instead of runnin out in heels shaking ma boom boom all nite.
The weather is just blaaaaa. Cold, rainy only black and White. To add to the not so exciting mood, I have on the most boring outfit of all times. Not so special blue jeans, a grey tshirt plus jogging converse. Hahahahaha and a black back pack. Yepp I look miserable.
Here is a black and white pic of ma shoes just bse everything sucks. Oh did I mention am in a bad mood? Yeah, no? Well yeah I am.

BAZINGA

yepp u guessed it right, am high on Big Bang theory series. Too good oh maigad. Ma biggest issue is that I tried to figure out who my best character is bah got a headache and decided to give up. Love it.
On another note. I hate when I plan an outfit for the next day only for the weather not to cooperate meaning that I have to change. Fwak. It really irritates me. Yesterday nite, I decided to plan together a very different outfit, different from what I usually put on bah it was banging hot and I was proud of maself only to wake up to rain this morning which totally destroyed it coz then I had to change the shoes and my top. Blaaaaa:(
Oh and stupid me gets stupider every single day. I usually walk from school home everyday . At least for the past 2 weeks. It takes like 40  mins home. Well, today was no exception coz I walked bah forgetting that I had high heels on and it was raining cats and dogs. Now I have no trouble going around in heels bah the way home from school is hilly and lots gravel = not good for my back. So I was in pain when I finally finally got home, all wet. Though I didn't mind being wet coz it reminded me of my home country. We always danced in the rain when we were younger. Best feeling.
Anyhu, No gym today coz YouTube helped me get in shape today with Zumba. An hour filled with fun.
Messy post as usual bah that's me. Am messy.

Nite nite dollz.

Every bone hurts

My lord am so tired. Had sch from 8a.m til 4 p.m.  Never in my university life have i had such long days. Ok apart from the looong labs, i havent been tortured like this in a while, Good thing physiology is interesting.
Anyhu, afterschool, i worked a little on my labs and then just hang out with ma girls at sch. They are so cute coz some had baked smearing cake and some had bought cottage cheese. Mums mums mus, and thats when i said goodbye to my healthy ways. BUT i trained afterwards. Oh my lord am addicted to cottage cheese these days. Am like where have you been all my life?
After gym, i washed and cooked and then helped my mum with her school work. Pufff glad this day is over. Oh am so looking forward to yoga tomorrow, never tried it so it should be fun. Gosh I bubble too much

Later dolls

Coz yall strong women

Monday and am feelin aite. Just aite. Didn't go to school coz.....umrm hmmm yeah was buzy cuddling. But that's all gone so am at work at the moment trying to make some money. Tis been a while. Oh and I haven't been to the gym in like forever so I'm making that happen today after work. I gotta get back to my healthy ways and work on that 6pack til summer. Though I've been a good girl lately coz I've been jogging everyday after sch for the past 2wks so thumbs up.
Anyhu, who says we ladies can't get ourselves 6 packs eh? I know for sure I can and y'all females out there can do it. Remember that. Found this caption on insta and its so good a motivation.

Baaaam

Baam people am back on track. Yesso. Damn these past weeks been tough on me. Way too tough. After hanging out with ma family and friends, I just became sad when they left plus sch and work aren't giving me a break. One bad news after another. Hohoho I wasn't that tough anymore. Smh
BUT thank the almighty it's Friday today coz am finally gonna see ma babe, my everything. The love of my life. Aaaaah am excited. Last saw him 2 wks ago so it really was time for hugs and cuddles<3 . On another note, these 3 songs been on replay the past week.

Happy weekend folks

Memories

All I got left are memories of you, of us. Good and bad times, everything we did, shared with and between each other. I will always cherish those times together and try to remember only the good times because the bad hurt way too much.
Memories. Such a priceless characteristic

Good nite dolls.

I will leave my mark for everyone to know...I WAS HERE

Oooopsi, totally forgot about my blog. Not so weird because ive literally taken YOLO to the next level the past 4-5 days. Party EVERY single day, shopping, meeting old friends and rekindling friendship. Oh am so glad i just abandoned sch and work and other stuff to live life for a moment. I hang out with my lovely mum, shopped, cafes, best friend hugs, forgiving and forgetting people,  my baby making me smile as usual and then party party party party like in the movie "project X", something like that. Thank God i dont drink coz then am always on in party mood, no hangovers.
Anyhu, back to hell now. Lots of studies and behaving. I got lots on my mind bah will write about that in other posts. Off to the gym now coz its been long.

Ciao dolls

Sunny day

Yepp this Sunday has for sure been sunny but I haven't experienced it coz I've been glued in my bed watching THE WALKING DEAD series. I have watched the entire season 3 today. Can you imagine, 13 episodes, each 45mins long and that's like 585mins,almost 10 hrs of being unproductive. Smh (nope I didn't use a calculator. Or did I?). Anyhu it's been exciting to watch zombies.
I actually managed to drag myself to the gym and joined a hard core interval 2hr torture workout. I thought I was gonna faint or pass out or even vomit because ma arms are apparently week and am not in shape at all. Damn it, beach 2013 is for sure far away.
Anyhu, I've been listening a lot to Beyonce lately. Dunno why coz am not a big fan bah she growing on me that lady. Oh and her songs help when you are down. Like this one.

Past midday

Oh my lord. Woke up for like an hour ago. No life. Anyhu, am so tired and worn out from Yesterday's festives so am just being lazy and listening to this amazing album. Queen Bey herself.
My favorites are LOVE ON TOP and I WAS HERE. This shiet is too good even though am more of a hip hop, RnB, reggea grinding person
Happy wknd folkz, am heading to the gym soon.

The experiment

Helluuu. Hehehehe in a good mood today. Mood swings u know. Anyhu, my already rough skin just got tougher and worse. So I got some advice from a dermatologist to give make up a break an then use a scrub everyday. I've used a scrub before but got lazy and didn't buy another one when it finished. Anyhu, I kinda felt naked without my make up but it's soooooo refreshing. Y'all should try it.
Anyhu, the products below are so far my favourite this past month and I've focused alot more on them given the fact that I ditched my make up. Apart from the foundation of course but am writing about it coz its too perfect.

NATUVIVE night cream; This is the latest remodled form of their night cream for normal/combined skin. And it smells goodie. I love the feel of it on my skin and its made wonders these past weeks.

VISIBLY CLEAR scrub; I actually prefer the original one in orange but this one does the job and the fact that i got it for free doesnt hurt either. It really scrubs the dirt off your skin and it just stays smooth. I use it once aday, before bedtime.

VICHY VICHY VICHY. I love EVERYTHING  vichy has to offer. It is an amazing brand that never disappoints. I sweat alot;( so this deodorant is prefect. A little too pricey from what I usually buy but its worth it, I promise.

BODYSHOP body mist. Muuuums so muums. It literally smells all day long. Got this one from a very very good best friend. My lovely shopaholic sister. Always get compliments when i have it on.

 

 

MAKE UP STORE foundation. Forget mac. Honestly, they have foundations in alllllll shades. From the lightest, to the darkest. The dark foundations have like a reddish undertone, while their powders, not all of them, have an orange ish tone and those two together gives you the p e r f e c t combination  AND you look good in pictures. I have several of their products that i combine with other cheap products from (isadora and maybelline). I always use make up store make up as a ground for my make up and then set it with other cheaper products. Poor students you know. Does that make sense? no? yes? may be?

 

 

 

Anyhu, someone needs my attention so am off to lala land. Adios