Yes I am. Am trying. Whenever I feel bad, I just burry maself in work or sch. I work work and work till I try to forget ma other problems. When I forget ma problems, I can fake smile for the world so that no one asks questions. I hate when pple ask me wats wrong coz am a private person. Yeah I know it can help to talk to someone now and then but urrrgh, it's nothing for me.
So even if I feel the way I feel, even if I feel like am letting down maself and the pple I love, I won't show it. I will work work work, til I forget and fake smile coz in the end, that's the process that makes me feel good.
So here I am, studying ma ass off, feeling so bright and smart. Am feeling good, laughing with friends coz at the end of the day, I will lay on ma bed with a huge smile, thinking "yes I can do this."
Am s survivor, we yall are.
So even if I feel the way I feel, even if I feel like am letting down maself and the pple I love, I won't show it. I will work work work, til I forget and fake smile coz in the end, that's the process that makes me feel good.
So here I am, studying ma ass off, feeling so bright and smart. Am feeling good, laughing with friends coz at the end of the day, I will lay on ma bed with a huge smile, thinking "yes I can do this."
Am s survivor, we yall are.
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