AIN'T NOBODY BUSINESS

Poor Riri, she back with the boy that beat and chocked her. Oufff. Love can't be explained but hey, as she sings, ain't nobody biness. Lol am hooked<3. 

Today

Today I feel ka boom, emotionally. Am exhausted coz av sch and all that but I feel good all around. Holidays are around the corner so imma take time with ma beloved and not think about ma worries. No sch, no work, no nothing that shrinks ma brain. Hell no.
So anyhu, imma think about ma dress codes and fashion and hair of course and just enjoy the holidays. Life is great so far <3.

Not that I Care

It's Christmas time, not that I care. Puffff. These stupid holidays remind me of my childhood where we never ever felt the holiday fever until Christmas Day. Our neighbours always invited us over brunch and gave us presented. Uuh gone are the days.
Now in a cold country, u start feeling the fever in Novemeber bse of the snow and the cozy lights put up on the streets. Hmm

Bla bla. Anyhu, am studying and it working out good all. Got a massive exam in 2 days but stupid me is working today, and got lab work tomorrow all day. Idiotic or what? Don't ask me. Gaaaah life is kind to me though.

I HATE

I hate when people use me. When they disuse my generosity and trust.
I hate when friends ignore me.
I hate that I hate ma mum.
I hate when people laugh at me without any reason.
I hate racism.
I hate bad breathe.
I hate being alone.
I hate having no money.
I hate the feeling of depression.
I hate talking feelings.
I hate talking about ma relationship to ma friends,
I hate physics.
I hate lending money to "friends" coz they never return it.

I know it's been a while since I blogged. I really hate not blogging.

Ova and out

Am trying

Yes I am. Am trying. Whenever I feel bad, I just burry maself in work or sch. I work work and work till I try to forget ma other problems. When I forget ma problems, I can fake smile for the world so that no one asks questions. I hate when pple ask me wats wrong coz am a private person. Yeah I know it can help to talk to someone now and then but urrrgh, it's nothing for me.
So even if I feel the way I feel, even if I feel like am letting down maself and the pple I love, I won't show it. I will work work work, til I forget and fake smile coz in the end, that's the process that makes me feel good.
So here I am, studying ma ass off, feeling so bright and smart. Am feeling good, laughing with friends coz at the end of the day, I will lay on ma bed with a huge smile, thinking "yes I can do this."
Am s survivor, we yall are.

Hate decisions

Blaaaa. Feels like life is upside down for moi:(:(. These past days have been hard on me, tough. This is when I really wished I had ma family near me so they could "look after me", comfort me or give me energy. Blaaaaa I hate life sometimes.
So I got an exam next wk on Wednesday and if I fail it, then am the stupidiest creature alive coz I've been studying soooooo hard these past days. Am exhausted but kant sleep, every inch on ma body hurts but can't seem to be able to just sleep and forget all the freakin biochemistry reactions that keep on popping in my head now and then. I just Kant take a break.
I really miss ma Mommi even though she can be mean. I wish she was here to give me a massage, advice, listen to me and tell me wats right or wrong (that if, if I listen). Am so upset about so many things that I Kant seem to think straight. I just wanna be able to have a normal conversation without me getting upset. Gooooosh I hate this, I hate when am like this, I hate when I feel like things I do or own, have no meaning, I hate hate hate when I feel like this, helpless, powerless and kinda stupid. I hate this part right here.



Am out, am off coz am empty

Love land

So am accidentally hangin out with ma babes. Hehehehehe. We were supposed to be apart this wknd but ack, faith brought us together. God is great;);). We watched breaking dawn 2 = shity movie coz I was disappointed.
Anyhu, imma kiss ma babe good nite.

Peace