November 7th 2013

That was yesterday. Yesterday is a day I will NEVER forget as long as I live. That's why am writing about it here so I don't forget. I've been In good spirits lately. I kinda knew it wouldn't last very long coz I got disturbing news yesterday, very unexpected and quiet frankly am still in denial. I know I have only myself to blame and am gonna fix this. All this will be taken care of in about 2 weeks and if it can't be taken care of then hell will be the leading word in my life. 

Gosh am such a coward and a cry baby. Yesterday was the first time I really got scared and started analysing my not rather eventful life. I got scared and started crying. I cried for atleast an hour til I slept. Thank God I feel better today because am coming around and trying to be calm. I hate myself for being lousy coz this could have been avoided.

Anyhu LEARN FROM YOUR MISTAKES they say and am sure as hell learning the hard way. I better stop writing before I burst in tears again. Am off

Happy me

Hej hello ho hai happy people<3. Missed my blog actually. I've been one happy girl lately may be because of  make up? Sleek makeup? Hahahaha no nooooooo no am just in a better mood these days. It's my boy who is too nice to me these days. Wonder why? Eh eh

Anyhu,  was out dancing with my girls last week and if am not mistaken, a girl tried to pick me up. Can you imagine, A GIRL folks. Lol the coward I am, I quickly headed for the exist. Nah I can handle guys hitting on me but girls? Hha I get scared. I got nothing on homosexuals coz some of my family members are homosexual and even some close friends so its not like am homophobic but it's something about girls that scares me. I can just yell at a guy and ask him to rot off somewhere else but I can't be rude to a girl. Hehehehehehe
May be I look gay? H,m will have to ask my boo that. Anyhu, happy Monday folks. Am off to do some studying. Kisses

A better day today

Today has been a usual normal day but better than the other days ive had. I was less busy today which gave me lots of time to think of stuff (i actually hate thinking but have to do it anyways), Nah i have been feeling sorry for myself lately but that has to stop because honestly there are people in worse conditions. One of my friends lost an aunt and she was literally crying allll day at school and of course i was there for her. Nah this doesnt mean i felt better but it got me thinking that i should instead focus on the positive going on in my life than letting minor issues destroy me.Starting with I, with my right hand raised, promise to always care for people but never ever expect the same from them because i always end in tears.
Oh yepp i have to swear on more stuff.
2. I promise to stop shopping (hehehe this does not apply for my make up)
3. I promise to stop getting my anger out on others. Especially my friends
4. I promise to always think that men are self centered idiots/babies with no brain cells. Hehehe
5. I promise to never rely on anyone.

Anyhu am off to clean my house coz am getting company tomorrow. Gotta cook my school lunch, study for my minor test tomorrow and of course see if I can get medicine to block my thinking brain or may be just sleep.

Misery business

This week oh my goodness. It's been crazy busy and I thank God for that bse I got heavy weights on my shoulders, things that I can't take care of, very outta ma league. Am slowly but surely loosing the most valuable "thing" in my life. Things out of my reach are forcing me to do that. Gaaaah I hate it but am strong, I am a strong woman (Beyonce voice). Am strong both mentally and physically. Because I decided to take a vacation last weekend, I've been behind in school but am surely catching up and that's why the late nights at school. Damn am such a fighter so am doing good and catching up where I should.
Can't wait for my babes to roll in at my place on Friday coz that means paaaaaarty.
Anyhu, imma take ma sad ass and sleep this early as I've done this entire week. Am strong.

It's sad

life can be sad, very sad at times. Its weird how you can change from being the happiest girl to crying your mascara off and your eye sockets literally jumping out. So many insecurities, way too many Ifs and buts spinning in the brain confusing one are just making life not worth living. Though I won't complain a lot bse than God am too upshot the straight. Soon or later, I gotta meet my demons but I will take that the ,not now, it's too much for tiny me to handle. Nah why do I put myself in such situations? Mtcheeeeeeeeew.
I wish I could just leave errrrthang and just be, but it's to hard when it involves others. You can't, I can't just let go and let be. This is when I wish I was a vampire who felt nothing.

Late nite thoughts. Am out

NUDITY

Naaaah not that kinda nudity yall thinking. Am talking nude lips folks. That's my new obsession. I've always tried nude lips but hhaaaa I looked like a starving 14 year old but thank God for YouTube, the secret behind descent or nice looking nude lips on women of colour is using lip liners. TRUST me when I say that you can't pull off a nude lip (Esp blacks) without a lip liner. Go get m.a.c (cork or chestnut) or nyx (espresso). It's worth the investment. Nah I just bought my lip liner mac chestnut a couple of days ago. So what have I been using in the mean time? Well I have a couple of soft eye pencils in brown and coffee colours. Too dark of course but blend blend blend blend and all looks very gorgeous. I've so far ordered the following nudes. With both pink/red undertones or purpleish/grey. I get away with them coz of the lip liners.

SLEEK - LIQUEUR

SLEEK - SUCCUMB

ISADORA - 28 CHOCOLATE BROWN

PICS BORROWED FROM THEIR RESPECTIVE WEBSITES
Nah thats my tiny collection so far. oooooh i smile everytime i put them on. They may look the same but they have different undertones. Succumb is my favourite. Oh btw Sleek probably has the cheapest but best quality make up. I ordered some stuff from them and it took like 5 days for it to come from uk to Sweden. Everything was very gorgeous and pigmented (especially the blushes). So sleek is my new best friend. I still love make up store but it is a little bit expensive.

Wrecking that

Am not a fun of Miley and certainly didn't thumbs up her MTV performance but dayyyyum am in love with this song. You go Miley, go get that cash.