POSITIVITY

Yasss I borrowed this from a blog I read. Positivity, that's my new thing. I am a very pessimistic person. I literally find the bad and negatived in eeeeeverything, and I mean everything. I even find the bad in myself. Yepp that's the ugly truth. It's gonna take time and hard work but imma do best to find the positive in stuff, to stop dwelling on the tiny events in my life. Just shrug if something gwon bother me. It's gonna take hard work, but I can do it.

frustration

Yepp thats the word of the day, infact, its the word of the week. Exams time and stupid, stupid me did not study during the holidays so yeah am paying for it na. I have 2 exams the next coming weeks, the first one coming up this Friday. Am panicking....literally. I still got time but i have been studying lots the entire weekend without any results. It does not help when people keep on asking  "oh how are your studies goin?". Just feel like answering "you dumb fuck got nothing else to ask?". Did i say i was frustrated? Hmmm think its turning to anger.

Anyhu am good how yall?

Off to ma bed that does not ask fucked up questions

Drunk on it.......literally

This song....the lyrics, the video. Oooooooh this song is meant for me. Totally not exeggerating. Am drunk in love, literally. Hope my significant other feels the same way. Hehehehehe I've been an angry girlfriend lately coz of the medication am on. Lol it plays with my hormones and makes me, who usually has a shirt temper, well it got shorter:(:(:(. Hate it.
Anyhu here is the video

This song reminds lots about ma summer. Oh should totally write the MAY-August resume when am at it. Best summer ever. Literally. I worked for 2 months and then chilled and travelled in August before school resumed. I do not remember arguiin that much with baby boo which always is a good thing. Hehehe. I had cash, my mami was spoiling me and being waaaaay too nice to me. Ooh summer 2013, you made me happy.

Ciao ciao off to...nah not sleep. Do something like stalk people on Instagram 

NEW YEAR'S EVE

Crazy, it's new New Year's Eve tomorrow. Time flys....is it flies or flys? Flys sounds more correct. Ok time flys. 2013 has a been a good damn year. I've never felt so alive (I know it's such a cliche), I've never felt so whole like I've felt this year. This been a good year and I kinda wish it doesn't end but we gotta move forward yall, we damn gotta move forward. All good things come to an end but its those hard/bad times that remind us of how strong we are. I got no new year resolutions this time around, nope. Imma just go with the flow hehehehehe and try to be positive.

Am always planning my New Year's Eve every year. Where's the party? What are we gonna do? Such a hustle. Well yall know what, am not doing any of that this year. Nope. Am just sitting back and just following ma man. It doesn't matter what we are doing that day as long as we are together, with each other on that day. He talked about some parties here n there but I don't care (well I kinda do coz I've bought a dress for that) but am not hyping about me. The new me? Hmm let's see how long this calmness lasts. 

Ciao

2013

You've been an amazing year to me. I honestly don't want this year to end but all good things...... Hahaha no no nothing is coming to an end. I hope for am even better year. I've achieved lots of stuff in this year and actually became a much happier person. I've literally lived my life and had fun for once. 

Lets start this resume backwards

SEPTEMBER - DECEMBER

Autumn to winter.

Autumn is my favourite season simply because of the colours and I actually like dressing up with layers and sweaters which makes autumn perfect. It's cold enough to wear a sweater but not that cold.....depending on where you live obviously. Plus, like I wrote, it's gooooorg<3.

Sch started in September and I was ready because I had had lots of time during the summer and I actually missed school (pse don't hold me account on this when I start nagging on sch). Anyhu sept throughout October, I was being a good girl going to the gym, studying hard, working and of course being a good girlfriend.

November. Stupid November. The hardest month that tested my patience, my relationship and how much I actually need my family. November reminded of how ma little sis has grown<3. November was damn hard and I've never felt depressed as I did during that month. It was the first time I hated autumn/winter and the darkness it brings with it. I longed for warm countries n summer. I thank God for putting me through that. I thank the almighty for my sister and most importantly thank him for bringing me the most understanding, patient, handsome and caring boyfriend. I wouldn't be anywhere without him even though I never admit it.....til now<3

Deceeeeeeember. Happy month. I've literally killed it at university where I've felt like super woman this term. Hehehehehe fingers cross that I keep that going. I've eaten lots and travelled lots.....to only one person. Hehehehehe. Am at ma's house atm just shopping my brains away, eating like there ain't tomorrow and damn it I gotta study. Will start tomorrow. Promise.

Off to slumberland. Ciao psychos

ABOUT ME

So let's start with what I like about me

1. Don know what otherz think but me thinks me can dance, shake ma ass till whatever. 

2. Am not shy but will or can be when necessary.

3. If I love or like you as a person, I will be the most caring/loving friend y'all ever hand. 

4. Me is black as charcoal, curvey with a flat nose n damn proud proud about it. 

5. Am a healthy. Not all the time but I always take care of my body>3.

6. I got lots of love to give, way too much. 

NOW TO WHAT I HATE ABOUT MASELF

1. I easily get outta place, irritated, pissed n angry. Shot tempered

2. I like things being done MY WAY or else we got a problem. Lol na that doesn't work in a relationship. 

3. Am obsessed with make up nowadays even though am not good at using it.

4. Am judgemental. :(:(:( theeee worst thing about me.

5. Forgive n forget, especially forget doesn't exist in my world. 

6. You don't wanna cross me coz I always seek revenge and never ever forget people who wrong me.

THIS WEEKEND

Am spending this weekend with the love of my life<3. We just hanging out, try a working out coz he is obsessed but most importantly we tryna having the best time we can together;);). So yeah am a happy creature atm.
In two week, I will be heading to my folks. Can't wait coz I lurrrve me mami's food. Oh btw am totally not feeling the holiday season this year. Nope. Am just dreaming myself away to the sun, summer, beach and what not. I think it's coz I had THEEEE best summer this past summer. Take me back someone.

Anyhu have a great weekend yall and remember to tell you significant others how much you appreciate em. Cuddles